tiistai 28. heinäkuuta 2015

beyond from fear

That one step...last step before you know, that you are leaving your comfort zone. That´s the hardest, sweetest, most challenging step of all! After that step there´s place, that is unknown, new... you are like pioneer in your life. You are going the place that ´s called: beyond from fear. 

How easy is to stay in this well known, everyday comfort zone? Not have to break your routine, not have to feel that fear to take another step... Just going on like every day you have use to. Yes, there´s some safety there...also something, that put´s us to sleep. Sleep from new things, new ways, new paths... 

Dreaming is one way to see, what could be. Hard part is to fulfill. 

But you know...after taking that step, that one step that separates you from your dream...that one step, that is so hard, takes all your courage... it´s like free fall! First fear, then getting to know your strength...then that feeling, where you can feel: I can do this, I can fly!!!! That feeling is the most awesome feeling ever. 

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I have so much steps to take. Funny, how silly things can hold us back.... small fears, without even noticing those..truly can hold us back so tight. I sometimes believe too much those words in my head: that´s not good..... that´s something, that you can hurt yourself. Mostly that´s my fear talking. 

I have taken some steps, and I have to tell you: I feel tired sometimes! Facing my fears is truly tiresome job......but: It has given even more! And once I saw, what will happen after winning me.... that´s just so addictive.... I wonder, where could I go, after winning more of my fears? 


I´m pretty exited about this path. I have had so much fears in my life, some real,  some in my head. To be able rise above... can´t even begin to tell, how much that gives me more boost to go on. Oh yeah, there are days, that I will hold on of those fears. Like I said, that comfort zone is...safe. 

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Something to think about, for me too..

with love
Maarit
 

tiistai 21. heinäkuuta 2015

Meeting: me

Again time has gone so fast. It´s funny, that when I was younger..it went much slowly.
I was in that audition last Friday and now I´m just waiting some info, how it went. Waiting is really not my strongest thing. But today, tomorrow...I should get that info. My stomach nerves! Wow...

I started to think my life now. It has really changed a lot, since I started this blog. I have changed. Or grown? Evolved? And lost again. Then finding my way all over again.
Doing that all over again, I realize new things, new ways to think, and sometimes...old are just fine.

I have been trying to do two things: regenerate and be here right now.
Usually those are good, of course, but.... then again. I tried maybe too hard...time to time. That bottom, where I have build myself since I was young... there was also something good. No need to change everything. I am, and always will be goofy, wild and not too serious. That´s not a bad thing!
There have to be some crazy things to keep me in balance....

I just need to sing in my car as loud as I can those 80´s rock songs. I just need to be childish sometimes... I will suffocate if I have to be in "order" all the time. And...I love to play with playstation..... War game, called Call of duty. Yep, I´m 44years old woman and for me... that´s fun. :D

So, I try to keep my eyes open and not trying to change too much. If I try too much, it will become more like obligation, than learning process.

Being here right now? I cant do that all the time. It truly gives me headache to think that I´m here now, all the time...and my mind wants to travel in it´s dreams....
I have to think about tomorrow, I will think sometimes my past. I have to... there´s so much memories and things... Tomorrow I need to pay bills, plan things...
And...I need my daydreaming.

Kuvahaun tulos haulle quotes about daydreaming So, I have to admit to me, that I dont have to try to be calm, perfect, to be in control.... I need to be me and that is enough. By doing that I might learn more. I truly feel more  like Peter Pan, I have always done so...


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I dont know, how much does horoscope effect in humans..I do believe that in my case those are right, time to time. I´m gemini... And some things are just right...



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with love
Maarit